A lot of responses which I appreciate very much, I’ll do my best to reply…
I don’t like bluegrass
“How will I feel if I do go home? (relief? sadness? it’s all a guess tho)” - I think this contains a very important point, “it’s all a guess tho”… I was trying to objectively analyze this, but there are just so many ways to look at it and so many things to consider I think the decision I make will in many respects be random
"If you think you’ve got the blues now, going to NH and ME during black fly season is not likely to make your mood any better. " - good point, i called up a friend yesterday who pointed out that the white mountains the weather can be pretty cold at night still and i’m just starting to enjoy temperate nights and mornings now, plus the flies in maine.
"How come you can’t find any good food on the A-T? " Chinese food in particular is bad here, the CheeseCake factory is the restaurant I’m looking for. Waitesr and waitresses are friendlier though, but oddly no restaurant will let me pay at my table, I always have to go to the cash register to pay… it isn’t like that in MA. I have a lot of thoughts on the trail and at some point in the next few weeks i’m going to make a long post on them and hopefully get some good discussion going.
“I’m advising you to quit. It could just be the BLUES” Yesterday I called my dad and a friend. My dad said it was okay if i came home and that if i wasn’t having a good time I should just come home. My friend put pressure on me and said this was part of the trail. My friend convinced me to stay on, I appreciate everyones advice but his in particular because right now I think his advice was the best.
" Haven’t you been ill recently" - yes, i hate squatting. Someone just taught me an interesting technique for going to the bathroom though that should make it easier for me, but it still has to be one of my least favorite parts of trail life. hopefully there are more privvies past damasucs (?)
“Being from NH I can tell you that you don’t want to come up here just yet… and it isn’t because of the black flies. I just hiked Moosiluakie on Saturday and there was over 2 feet of snow still on parts of the trail” - yup
“maintaining a few close friendships on the Trail means a lot–and can help to beat the Blues.” Yeah, the people I like the most are either quit (i’m pretty sure he quit anyway) or ahead of me (i’m going to try to catch up with them. this definitly played a part in my decision to quit. To be honest, I don’t like most of the people i’m with now.
Great quote by lombardi.
Well said Bilko
Spirit Walker, I’m not really sure what your point is, your post has discouraging overtones.
"“if you really want to be somewhere else than on the trail, then that’s where you should be”. " this might be a good way to look at whether i should keep going or not out here, it’s a good clear question. on the other hand, someone was talking earlier about focusing my mind and really, if i wasn’t spending my time the last couple days thinking about how nice it would be to paly poker again, or frisbee or whatever then i wouldn’t have created so much doubt in my mind
as i mentioned earlier, my friend convinced me to keep going, and that’s what i’m going to do. your responses didn’t help me make this decision because i made it before i got to this message board but i have to say, i did not expect 20 substantial responses. your support will strengthen my resolve.
what do i miss? poker, frisbee friends, movies etc. they’ll all be waiting for me when i get back though and i’ll just appreciate them that much more. i logged online and a bunch of friends messaged me their support definitly helped. my pack is a lot lighter now, i had a big gregory palisade when i started which i filled up, now my base packweight is about 16 pounds. i’m going to go back and hike 30 miles of the trail i skipped before, i feel like that compromised my trip some. anway, i’m going to keep going, that’s a great lombardi quote.
danny
danny