I’m currently planning a thru-hike for next year. True to form, I’ve devoured just about every book I can get my hands on and I’ve gone through a few of the journals and over a years worth of posts here. I own a business which is for sale and will close in October if it doesn’t sell. I’m just sick of the BS here. My sometimes best friend/sometimes significant other/constant source of frustration wants to come along, but that’s doubtful…we have a turbulent relationship and I began planning this on my own.
I have never been hiking. I went to Girl Scout Camp in 4th grade and came home miserable - covered in mosquito bites, poison ivy, and horse piss…yes, it peed on me. I’m wearing $300 shoes and I shower twice a day most days. I am ok with a lot of things, but pooping in a hole scares me. I am a recovering drug addict and I’ve been in some shady situations, but being alone with no one to hear me scream kind of scares me.
On the other hand? If I say it, I do it. I’m the girl who jumped out of a second story window because my little brother said I was a wuss if I didn’t. And used to jump across the abyss on the 11th floor of Rubin Hall at NYU just because people were watching. In other words, I have massive potential to take stupid risks once I say I will - because my word means a lot.
Is it really 90% mental? Because, upstairs? I’ve got this. Physically? I’m not in the best shape right now, but I’ve been through obsessive 3-hours-a-day at the gym 7 days a week bursts. Nothing physical worries me. I dig the idea of not even trying to camp before I leave because I like the shock value. Am I totally dreaming here?
High Maintenance Hiker